Yes, it has taken a lot of time to hold the broken pieces together and move ahead in life.
If this has happened with you or you are struggling to move on, this is for you.
I will be sharing my story, I do not know how it appeals to you but trust me it will teach you a lot.
Let's begin.
It was a time when I got admission in the college I always dreamt of. And I had joined that college for completing my bachelors. Bachelors in some famous college is always fun thing because of so many things happening at the same time which gives you ample amount of opportunities to participate and develop your personality. All will agree on this who have been a part of such famous Colleges, especially in a city of dreams- Mumbai!
I made quite good friends in the initial phase. I had to do that because all my school friends had taken Engineering and I, alone, had opted Science as a stream. I made bunch of friends and started hanging out with them. At that time I was not orthodox, I had a boyfriend but due to some reason, we separated.
Now, single girl hanging out with her friends, would definitely like to have a boyfriend to have gossip and complain about him or in the best case, praise him in front of the friends and show how lucky a girl is having such a darling boyfriend.
That was not there in my head though! Do not even think that I thought that before falling in love.
The story actually does not begin in College, it begins in a Karate Match!
On weekends there used to be day long Karate Matches. It still does but now I am writing in Lockdown so "used to". I was very much into it and I loved been there on the match day. That day, 24th November, 2014, we (my karate team) reached the venue of the match and started settling down. I was not playing but was an official. I did not want to go but I had nothing to do and chose to visit the venue and learn something from people around.
My coach, gave the direction on who will do what and we started working on it. I was asked to be at the table as a side jury and my work was to note the time and buzz when time is over. That is it! It was as simple as it sounds! I was a kid + new to the Karate field. I was working deligently and my eyes fall on one boy.
He was adorable. Anybody who were at my place, would have fallen for him. And so did I. I fell in love at that very moment. There was charisma in the way he carried himself. His formal attire, his style of raising flags (in Karate, the flags- Red and Blue are raised to notify your decision), his way of treating seniors, his way of respecting juniors, his walk, talk and everything, I started noticing. I observed him for quite a while and realized my eyes are stuck on him and it was as if my eyes were not even shutting, never wanted to lose on even a single glimpse. It was that amazing!
I looked at him like a bride looks at her groom. And realized, time is up! Rang the bell! And my eyes shut and I came to reality.
Later to this, I started realizing that he was also looking at me. I thought to myself that he did not like I staring at him. But suddenly there was a rush of hormones, when he kept looking at me in a gentle and caring way, as if there is something in between us, there is something that he wants to know and the answer is only with me, it was of that sort.
My sir, came to my table where I was sitting as a side jury and he started interacting with him. Wow! I was smiling internally. My each and every cell of my body felt that moment that - My sir knows this person and he is talking to him and fooling around with him which means - He is a nice guy!
I already had a thought in my head to start conversation with him. But had no idea, how to start, how to build that rapport with him. And will he even talk to me? I had put oil on my head, I had tied my hair up showing everyone how big forehead I have got and wearing the white shirt and formal pants, you can say, worst attire of my life. And yet, I dared to start a conversation.
I had gone down to have lunch and when I reached the place where I was sitting, he was playing with few juniors. And I asked,
"Have you seen my Sir?"
" Who is your sir?"
"Nikhil Sir"
"Oh, I have no idea!"
"Okay, thanks! Let me know if you see him."
"Sure!"
Oh My God! His voice was mesmerizing as if I just could sit there and listen to him.
But, work was there and I left for it.
I sat at my table and suddenly he was disappeared. The time when my sir and he had conversation, my sir had asked him to which girlfriend he is going to meet today. He was on a call before that conversation and my sir had noticed it. However, when that question was asked, I still remember, he looked at me and must have thought to say no because my eyes were glued on him for his answer. He said he was going to meet his cousin and smiled and looked at me. I diverted my attention to the work given.
And that is how he disappeared. Yes, he had gone out of that hall to meet someone. Cousin, Girlfiriend, Friend, Crush, I had no idea!
He disappeared before I could build rapport and ask for his name and number. I tried asking juniors with who he was playing before. I asked them but they were totally unaware about it.
I tried asking others who were sitting at my table as side jury. No one knew his name.
But,
One of them turned to me and said his name is Abhijeet or something. I was like okay, this doesn't suit him but it is fine beacuse "What's in a name?".
I just had a thought in my head- I want him in my life. Be it my boyfriend, friend or I will accept him as my enemy also but I want him to play a role in my life.
I could not speak to him later and I went home with my team winning many medals and a runner up trophy.
But that day took his memory with me and patience till the next karate match where I could see him again.
